Another generally lazy day: too much time watching films & Substack.
Sending emails to fix my previous mistake still.
Felt like everything after college was more surface level, like I was improving more until 19.
Realised I’m not actually playing this game right. I’ve fallen into the gifted trap. Grown complacent, not challenging myself, not strong enough of a work ethic. Drift under weak external structure.
Everyone around me feels like they’re missing the ball, NPCs at college. Super easy exams.
People fail them for whatever reason still.
But still, higher level people scare me and I know they exist. My secretary is one.
I’m wasting my potential, my high level connecting and reasoning.
I should actually play. Start cracking open textbooks, work ethic.
Read amazing substacks!
Career credidential escape velocity (hiring baseed on where you worked before locking you in), concluding that theoretically you should pay to work somewhere like Google. Might want to work unpaid?
Homeschooling pitfalls. If i ever seriously consider it (Henrik Karlsson does it, amazing essay on autobiographies of geniuses), I better watch out.
No tech regieme sound good? I would build a little box that only has claude on it, and really educational whitelisted videos. No other programs.