• Another generally lazy day: too much time watching films & Substack.
• Sending emails to fix my previous mistake still.
• Felt like everything after college was more surface level, like I was improving more until 19.
  • Realised I’m not actually playing this game right. I’ve fallen into the gifted trap. Grown complacent, not challenging myself, not strong enough of a work ethic. Drift under weak external structure.
  • Everyone around me feels like they’re missing the ball, NPCs at college. Super easy exams. People fail them for whatever reason still.
  • But still, higher level people scare me and I know they exist. My secretary is one.
  • I’m wasting my potential, my high level connecting and reasoning.
  • I should actually play. Start cracking open textbooks, work ethic.
• Read amazing substacks!
  • Career credidential escape velocity (hiring baseed on where you worked before locking you in), concluding that theoretically you should pay to work somewhere like Google. Might want to work unpaid?
  • Homeschooling pitfalls. If i ever seriously consider it (Henrik Karlsson does it, amazing essay on autobiographies of geniuses), I better watch out.
  • No tech regieme sound good? I would build a little box that only has claude on it, and really educational whitelisted videos. No other programs.